Christianity has become everything that Jesus hated

I am not a Christian

Because gays are to be stoned but rapists are to pay a fine and marry their victims

Because “don’t do thought crimes” made god’s top 10 rules and “women aren't propery” didn’t

Because when I came out my parents said I must have rejected god because somehow being myself and being Christian were opposed Because when I told my family about being abused my mother tried to give me a speech about forgiveness

Because god commanded “do not kill” and ordered the death of anyone who disobeyed

I am not a Christian

Because being born female and not wanting children is appalling Because being born female and not wanting to be married is appalling Because teenage girls hope their future husband won’t want sex all the time and I realized much later that we were just hoping our husbands wouldn’t be rapists

Because a girl’s worth is defined by her virginity Because if you have sex before marriage for any reason you’re a used toothbrush or a flower without petals or a chewed-up piece of gum (yet no one ever tells this to the boys) Because a woman’s worth is defined by her husband and his misdeeds fall on her head Because a good wife submissively lets him beat her bloody in hopes that her patience will convert her husband (before he kills her – but nobody says that part)

Because any theology that leaves room for a god that hurts you because he loves you leaves room for a partner who does the same

I am not a Christian

Because god loves us so much that he gave us free will and created eternal torment if we don’t choose him

I am not a Christian

Because science is persecuting Christians for not allowing creationism without evidence Because the government is persecuting them for not enforcing Christian values and rituals Because the school system is persecuting them for not letting instructors lead Christian prayer Because political correctness is wrong for letting people practice non-Christian religions for letting people be different Because equal rights is wrong for enforcing the humanity of “sinners”

Because anyone in power who disagrees is a persecutor and anyone not in power is sub-human

I am not a Christian

Because you have to put on a Good Christian Face for your Christian friends Because non-Christian friends are “projects” Because the end goal of any friendship with a non-Christian is conversion they teach you how to make friends for the sole purpose of converting them and if you haven’t talked about Jesus you’re a bad friend

Because physical disability is a punishment from god Because mental illness is a sign that you don’t love god enough Because god allowed every bad thing in your life and you’re supposed to thank him for it

Because one of my only memories from childhood is my father with his hands around my throat and he is still one of his church’s most respected elders

I am not a Christian

Because “your heart is deceitful above all things” Because you’re taught not to trust yourself Because you’re taught that you are inherently evil and that anything you want is inherently wrong Because taking care of yourself is the very last priority right behind giving everything you have to others

I am not a Christian

Because forgiveness means you’re the bad one for being angry

Because forgiveness means I’m wrong for being angry at my rapist Because forgiveness means I’m wrong for being angry at my abusers Because forgiveness means I’m wrong for being angry at injustice

Because loving myself means I’m succumbing to evil because I am evil

I am not a Christian

Because Christianity looked me square in the eye and said, We don’t care about you, we just care that you play by our rules.